Your Word says,
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.Matthew 11:28
Well I am weary. Physically and mentally exhausted.
Your Word says,
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.John 14:27
I want the peace and rest that only You can provide.
That peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).
Right now, in the quiet of the night I want to hear Your voice. I want to know that You are near. I want to feel Your presence. I want Your arms around me.
My soul is heavy with the burdens I carry and my heart aches. But every day I put one foot in front of the other.
I want to curl up and rest my head in Your lap. I want to rest in Your embrace.
Right now in the quiet of the night I am not a wife striving to submit and honor you in my marriage or a mom fighting for her children’s souls as I strive to train them up in the way they should go. Right now I am not a small group leader, a PTA president, room mom, soccer mom or an employee. I am not a neighbor or a friend, a sister or a daughter.
I am just a child of God. Your child casting all my cares unto you. Seeking rest for my weary soul.
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?Matthew 6:25-27
Right now, I am not going to worry. I will not distract myself, with busyness, from the ache in the pit of my soul. No music, no books, no media, no podcasts and food or drink. Just You. I will rest in the quiet, with You.
Right now I will feel my pain and my anger. I will feel my despair and my discouragement, my loneliness and the longings of my heart. I will bring them to You. I invite you into them. Hold my heart, Lord. I give these to you, knowing that this is why You went to the cross. In exchange I claim Your love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control (Galatians 5:22,23).
I invite You into the mess that is my life. The mess in my heart and the mess in this room that I lay.
Your Word reveals to me that you don’t need me to be cleaned up before I come to you, but You will run to me, in my mess, and put your robe around my shoulders (Luke 5:11-32).
Some of the mess is a product of my sin. Forgive me Father. Some of the mess is a product of another’s sin against me. And some a product of living in a fallen world. In all this I trust in You . I surrender all to You. Take this weight off my shoulders.
Tomorrow I will get up and I will serve you while I wait on you. I will put my trust in You and not in prayer answered in the way that I want. I will face the impending loss of income, I will face my childrens struggles and my own struggles. I will face the challenges that come with the many roles that I play. I will face everything You allow to come into my path because I trust You and trust that You will work all things out for my good according to Your purposes (Romans 8:28).
So, I will continue to work in the works You prepared in advance for me (Ephesians 2:10). All the while with a sword at my side (Nehemiah 4:18). Fully clothed in Your armor (Ephesians 6:10-18) and standing firm in the midst of the battle that rages within me and around me.
Help me Lord.
Equip me for this work and battle.
For you Lord, are my refuge and strength, a very present help trouble.Psalm 46:1